Move, Blocked, Blogging

I  realized after I posted rap's comments that being being aware of all of those feelings is exactly what I am afraid of being overwhelmed by, and it's one of the reasons why I haven't been writing here. Moving is so hellish. The older I get the more hellish it becomes. And we just did it like maybe last week? I feel terribly guilty first of all that we even moved here (shoulda put my foot down) and second that Kent has to bear so much of the brunt of it because I'm not much use to him physically. And then I get into this spiral of thinking about what is going to happen to us and I scare myself. I would love to be in some nice serene place in my head where I can go and just know, bloody know that everything will be fine but I don't have that place. So when I start letting the feelings in (like now), I start getting panicky and overwhelmed and then I just want to curl up in the corner and not think about any of this for as long as I can get away with it. So what do I do to keep from literally going off the deep end?  How do I simply notice these feelings? They are feelings. It's not like watching a movie. I'm living it. Stop this train. I wanna get off!
 
Suggestions? 

By the way, blogger's comments section seems to be working again.