Trying for a Sucessful Post

We'll see if Blogger will let me post today. K. is in DC in what may become our new digs. He meets with Tom tonight. I went to church today. Holy shit! I went to church today! I can't even tell you how weird I find this. One of the things they do at this church is this: at the end of the service they join hands & sing "Let There Be Peace on Earth." Everybody is sort of swaying with the music, it's nice. But then the last verse comes and all these joined hands raise up and sing the phrase, "let there be peace on earth & let it begin with me." Man, I gotta tell you, it grabs my heart every time. There is something very powerful not in just the words but the whole group.

Today she talked about forgiveness, and it was excellent. She talked about ways of forgiving and I knew that I had done exactly that with my family of origin. She talked about people we might need to forgive -- parents, boss, friends, spouse, ex-spouse. And just before she said it, I knew what she was going to say -- yourself. If I have been able to use the principles and practices of forgiveness for others in my life, I clearly know how to do it. Now I must use those for myself. It's very important, I think, that I forgive myself for things I've done that I've carried around all these years as evidence that I'm a schmuck, no-good, etc. I won't belabor the point. I'll meditate more.

Now I have to go become ebay queen and sell some stuff. Because, in case I neglected to mention it, we are friggin moving!!